I remember when you were this young, with your life ahead of you; reaching crossroads; torn in different directions. Always trying to balance those activities that embodied being “well rounded”. So many choices ahead and not sure which choice holds highest priority. You want to do all of them, but there is not enough time.
Family and Friends Crossroad:
Although, you have other siblings, you grow up like an only child, and always as an adult. You were taught, “You are best seen and not heard”. You are a quiet sensitive spirit; an “old soul”, as some refer to you; too complicated for most; too much effort needed on their part to understand you. Your friends are few; their personalities eclectic. Those special few are bonded to your heart; closer to you than your blood family. They recognize you and understand you. All the while, I hear you think, “I am not that complicated”!
Music Crossroad: You love going to concerts and symphonies; music is ingrained in your soul. You know all the new music and new talent. Your collection of albums is extensive. To keep them straight, you divide your widespread collection of music, by female, male and groups; each color coded so you can spot them in an instant. Music to fit every mood, to soothe and heal you, to celebrate with you, to dream with you.
Love Crossroad: As young girls do, you fall in love. You love a young man deeply; and he loves you. He asks you to marry him, and you say yes. With a college student job, money is limited. Times are different then than they are now. Access to telephones is limited; long distance calling only used for emergencies. When he moves away to take his first job, letter writing is the sole means of communication. You are both so proud of his accomplishments. I remember you wanting to quit school, and follow him to live his dreams. He and your parents convince you to remain in school so you could graduate with a “college degree”; your ticket for a “good job”. Unwittingly, this altered the course of your life. He found another, but forgot one minor detail … to tell you about her. He married her; leaving you without explanation for his actions. You were the last to know. Oh, my dear one, how this changes your view on love and life; it shakes the core of your foundation of trust, love and hope. You turn your shattered self inward; you juggle the pain well from outsiders; illustrating to the world you are a strong, thoughtful, caring, organized, and determined, young woman with a successful life ahead. All the while, you wonder, what lies in store for your life.
Studies and Career Crossroad: Much to your chagrin, not only do you finish college, you proceed onward to obtain your graduate degree. You delve into your career. It is a successful one.
All throughout, I remember you thinking …
“Seems like everything is always changing, yet always remains the same.”
Life’s Crossroad: If you could transport yourself into the future to where I am … If you could view “you” at this crossroad – what would you see? Is there anything you would change? What would you keep? Would you do something different? What would it be? Would you journey down a different path? Would you seek different people? Different interests? What would you highlight? What would you pursue? Where? When? How?
If you realized then, you are part of a puzzle … You are an integral fragment; no one else can fulfill the role the same as you – how would this affect you and your selections? If you knew the paths you cross and the lessons you learn – are breadcrumbs in some scenarios, stepping stones in other circumstances, and building blocks in others … for you and for them, how would you feel? Would you be satisfied? Would you understand, you are specially chosen for this life.
I must share with you … all along the journey of your life, you may not realize who you affect until much later in your existence on this earth; and you may have to delay discovering until you reach another realm. Nonetheless, each crossroad you pursue, each path you wander, each person you meet is for a purpose. Nothing is by accident; everything is by design.
If I could send you one message from the future, keep this role in mind, and live a purposeful, appreciative and blissful life. There is joy in everything, even from the tragedies. Refine your sliver for the puzzle’s completion, so you slip right into place, blossom and assist the other pieces into their places. Hold the space for them, so they can do the same for another.
You are uniquely special. Carry this message within the very core of your being; infuse this knowledge in your thoughts, actions, and deeply rooted in your heart. Let your distinct light shine, allow yourself to become a bright beacon for others. All else will fall into place.
I send this to you, with utmost love and respect ~~
Kellie’s Guidelines for Free Write Friday:
You may write in any form you choose, as this is FREE Write Friday after all but, should you choose to use the traditional method of “free writing”, here are some guidelines to follow:
- Do not think. Do not edit. Do not pay attention to spelling, punctuation or form.
- Just allow the moment, your feelings, your imagination to run free and …
- Do not stop until you find yourself forcing your words or trying too hard to complete a thought.
© rgb for “On Dragonfly Wings with Buttercup Tea”, 2011 – 2012