Twinkle of Appreciation
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Skittish child
crossed
but not alone
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On Sunday YaYa was happy, playful and in her own way, allowing us to provide her attention. Monday morning dawned with a different fur-child; one who was lethargic and breathing heavily; obviously in distress. With less than 2 days notice of her impending transition, our porch cat, YaYa crossed over to Rainbow Bridge late this afternoon.
From the beginning, we knew YaYa’s lifetime would be short; she was diagnosed with Feline Leukemia last April when she was spayed. We made the conscious decision, not to have her euthanized at that time. In communicating with her, I set the rules: 1) stay out of trouble (ie fighting) and 2) stay within the confines of our yard. She kept her end of the bargain.
With painstakingly slow progress, YaYa finally allowed us to pet her with the stipulations:
1) we must approach her a certain way, 2) she did not want to sense any intention to pick her up, and 3) limit contact to quick sessions.
Over time, she wanted the attention, but was fearful to totally immerse in trust. In the last couple of months, she sought our attention, but we had to continue to abide by her prerequisites.
After our assessment of her physical and energy level on Monday morning, YaYa sought refuge under our pier and beam house; accessible to humans by crawling on our stomachs. She did not exit until mid-afternoon today. With a sigh of relief she was no longer under the house, yet sensing the end was near, Ray and I said our goodbyes, letting her know it was okay to journey on to her next station. Although, she attempted to retreat under the house for the end, we were able to block her efforts.
While stroking her gently and providing sessions of Reiki, I sang to her … until she crossed over. She passed relatively peacefully … in the sunshine, connected with the Earth and surrounded by her playmate, Seeley, and her Earth’s guardians, Ray and me. I ceremoniously wrapped her in turquoise flannel for her journey.
YaYa, blessings on your journey, sweet one!! Holding the light for you. You are totally safe now!
YaYa
August 2010 – September 4, 2012
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© by rgb for “On Dragonfly Wings with Buttercup Tea”, 2011 – 2012
Note: This makes our 3rd fur-child loss in less than six months.
"On Dragonfly Wings with Buttercup Tea" 
I’m sad for you and your husband Becca ~ recent months have been quite tough. But you write about YaYa’s life and passing with pure love and dignity and your words give me strength and comfort. Stray cat ‘Summer’ wandered into our lives, when I was at my lowest ebb and, though I respect and care for her, I’ve held back for fear of loss. (With humans, too, I’ve just realised.) Your poignant words have given me much food for thought, something to work on. Thank you for sharing.
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I am so sorry for your loss Becca. Our furry pals are such an important part of life. Parting from them for now is always hard. A lovely tribute here. Take care, G
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Thank you, Geraldine … it is quite an adjustment and another energy balancing!
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A tear just splashed here for you and YaYa! Yet I am filled with peace just knowing she passed while you sang to her! Paws together for Yaya!
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Thank you, granbee! It is quite an adjustment for us … with a difficult layer of emotions. This makes one from each area of our home – back, inside and front of the house. It is an honor to have been given to care for these spiritual beings of energy. Many lessons to learn from them while they are with us.
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This made me cry. I am so glad you gave her love on her journey here on earth and made her passing one of love and peace.
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We tried my best … but it it’s still difficult.
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I hesitated to “Like” this post, Becca, as I do not like what it is about nor do
I like the ending. I do like how sweetly you wrote about your precious Ya-Ya.
I am in disbelief as to how many of your fur-children have gone on to nirvana,
recently.Your hearts must be broken. Your husband and you have endured great
losses lately. I am saddened by that and the passing of Ya-YA. I love my cat and
all that others have. I am sad that their leaving us can leave us so desvastated.
I pray my senior citizen Marshmellow has as pleasant a journey and final moments
as your Ya-Ya did. Blessings to you all and … RIP Ya-Ya
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Thank you, Izzy … I appreciate you taking the time to leave us a note! xoxo ♥♥♥ This is not an easy calling — as evidently we are called to do it … as these fur-kids keep coming … they may appear suddenly out of nowhere … stay for a brief respite or hunker down and stay with us the remainder of this journey for them. Although very heartbreaking, and not accounting for the toll it takes on our emotions, it is an honor and a privilege to care for them. Each is sent to teach us important lessons. There is something very sacred about holding space for them as they reach the end of time in this realm of life. I thank Patricia Dancingelk for teaching me the importance of singing.
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YaYa demonstrated some of the same qualities I’ve seen in my DixieRose – particularly that reluctance (such a poor word for her resistance!) to be picked up. Thank you for sharing some of YaYa’s life, and thank you for being there for her at the end.
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Thank you for leaving a comment … it was an honor to provide for her. This being the 3rd makes it more difficult — tough on the emotions.
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So sad and yet so beautiful. It reminds me of the time my dog finally submitted to her diabetes. I shared her passing with Reiki throughout the night until she went on her way peacefully.
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What a blessing for her and for you. Thank you, Libby!!
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Brings tears to my eyes. You gave her respect and dignity and most of all, love. I can feel how smoothly she sailed across and that she is smiling at you.
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I know she is happy and secure — frolicking with our other fur-kids, fur-nieces and nephews!! I will consider her another angel on our side.
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Sorry to hear of the lost of your beautiful cat Ya-Ya
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Thank you, leahJlynn!! She had the most beautiful eyes in her copper and white body.
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What a lovely message of remembrance…I am truly sorry for all your recent furry losses..each one a deep wound to your soul…it is fortunate you were able to be with her at the end.
Peace and love,
Siggi
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Oh, Becca, I’m so sorry for the loss of YaYa…what a difficult series of losses this has been. Thank goodness you were able to be there with her, in the sunshine, on the earth, during the goodby time…my heart goes out to you.
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Yes, it has been a difficult 5 months … I hope it is quite awhile before another.
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It is amazing to gain the trust and love of another being and it speaks so well of you and yours that you were able to be there until the end – it is so hard but you will never forget the love. This made me cry and remember fondly those precious furry ones I have lost – I am sorry for your loss
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Thank you … it seems to be “my calling”!
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